Poetry: Walid Abdallah

Walid Abdallah

A candle in the wind

I am a candle in the wind

dancing happily, I pretend

I am always deep under pressure

Suffering from stress with no measure

In silence I always burn

How to survive I should learn

I always live to end others' night

They think it's my duty and their right

Nobody cares how I feel

Or cools my wounds that never heal

No dream in my life comes true

Because of winds that always blow

I burn for others' happiness

I only get their carelessness

I don't know for how long I should burn

For those who never care or concern

I gradually vanish for their sake

they squeeze my hear and break

I really can't stand for long

To a place I never belong

I lost the love of my life as a whole

In a world with no substitute at all

She couldn't stand in the wind with me

Left me in the storm and decided to flee

She took all the sense of life away 

And left me in the wind lost and astray

I am half alive and half dead

I can't bear what she just said

She left and took my heart with her

She never knew how much I care

We become strangers again

As she couldn't bear the pain

I am a candle in the wind

Only sad sighs I can send

***

Addiction

You have become my addiction

Much better than any prediction

My day is never complete without you

You're the dream my heart aspires to draw

My day never starts without seeing your face

Your heart has become my only place

I can't resist the magic in your eyes

My love for you is an ocean that never dries

Your smile relieves all my pains

My heart is thirsty waiting for your rains

Your voice has become my favorite music

My love for you excelled any kind of logic

You have become the only dream I aspire to

My happiness has personified into you

Into your eyes I easily get lost

Your hug has become my only host

Forever is never enough to love my rose

Your love is the only thing I am afraid to lose

Come closer darling, you're my addiction

I need your hug, I need my injection

***

Come

Come to love you for a night

Telling you everything right

Come to greet you with a kiss

Which a thousand articles fail to express

Come to hug you like a child

And lighten the burden you hide

Come to die in you to survive 

At a point where fancy can never arrive

Come to love you for once and make you my poem

Where separation will never bloom

***

Each Time

Each time I see you 

I fall for you

How many hearts should I possess?

To explain my love to you and express

Each time I see you before my eyes

I love you again, ask my hear it never lies

I have only one heart to fall for you

You have the heartbeats that flow

You make my day night and my night day

I mean every and each word I say

You deserve the love of the whole universe

You deserve every emotion and feeling I possess

I spent all my life before you in vain 

I wasted it in wandering bearing my pain

You appeared like a clear sky

Eliminated each pain and cry

You relieved all the pains I once felt

Only for you my heart and soul melt

Each time I see you

My heart shouts "I love you"

***

My heart

My heart is forever young

A divine hymn to be sung

I love everyone and always forgive

As twice as I take, I always give

I try to be nice as possible as I can

Of peace and love I am a great fan

Life is short to waste in hate

Let tolerance be our only fate

Love people and nature around

Only the base of justice we must found

Leave good mark on each heart you meet

Let your nice memory your main good feat

Whenever you go spread love and affection

Be much nicer than people's prediction

Treat everyone equally be always fair

Show everyone your respect and care

Being respectful is something you never regret

You will be rewarded more than you expect

We are on earth to make it a paradise

Listen to me and follow my advice

Dream big and complain less

Sadness never lasts and neither does happiness

Think positively and always be optimistic

You cannot change your fate by being pessimistic

Let live, love, and learn your goal

Carve them deep in your soul

The heart that does not know envy lives longer

It has better destiny and grows stronger

My heart is forever young

A divine hymn to be sung

***

I need you

I need your eyes to see my way

I need your smile to make my day

I need your love to live my life

I need your heart to forget strife

I need your soul to have a being

I need your mind to appreciate my feeling

I need you by my side

I need you in my heart to reside

I need you my angel and Princess

I need you to give me eternal happiness

I need you my dear forever

Promise not to leave me, never

***

I will be always there

I will be always there for you

With much love that will always flow

When life is hard and really tough

I will give you support that is enough

Whenever you want to cry

I will be there your sigh

Whenever you want to fly 

I will be always there your sky

Wherever you go on this earth

I will be always there your breath

When you feel lonely and under pressure

I will be always your happiness treasure

Whenever you walk in the night

I will be always there your light

Whenever you are afraid of the vast space

My heart will be always there your place

When you are down and need support

I will be always there your life port

When you are happy and excited

For your happiness I will be delighted

Whenever you want to talk and speak

I will be always your back that won't break

Whenever you close your eyes

I will be always there your warm sighs

Wherever and whenever you go

I will be always there for you

***

Lion

I am the lion and this is my land

Everything kneels with one move of my hand

I have all the strength and power

I defeat any opponent in less than an hour

I wander about the whole earth 

I never suffer from any kind of dearth

In front of me, everything kneels

I am the fear any creature feels

Despite my power, sometimes I feel weak

In your arms I don't fear to break

When I am in the sadness state

You are  my only soulmate

I am not afraid to feel weak in your arms

You are always the only heart that never harms

I always run for you to feel secure

In your hug I find true love so pure

Whenever I don't need anyone

You're always there my only sun

In your presence, I never feel lonely

My heart always needs your love truly

In front of my queen, I feel helpless

My love all the words fail to express

My lioness, you are the only army I own

You are the crown on my head and my throne

Only in your arms I find my rest 

I forget I am the king of the forest

***

Lonely

I always feel lonely 

I do everything solely

In silence I always suffer

I shed tears like a river

No body is near to feel

Only to my pains I kneel

Life goes around and around

Only high fences people found

I wander about the earth to get lost

Into a deep tender heart to host

In this life I feel deeply strange

People aren't stable, they change

Although people are around

I see them but hear no sound

I see people like unseen ghosts 

Only bitter tears my heart hosts

I was born to be lonely on this land

With no body close to understand

I am a weeping moon in vast space

Missing a warm hug to embrace

Stars sparkle around without any care

Leaving the moon with pains to bear

The moon has a dark and bright side

But its pains are always there in tide

The moon leads a life to please others

In a field of pains my heart gathers

The moon is always there in the sky

Lightening the earth hiding  its cry

When time comes and people feel its pain

And finds understanding heart to explain

I dream not to feel lonely anymore

And feel happiness I never tasted before

Will that day come soon

And that night becomes noon?

***

On our first date!

On our first date

I race the time, can't wait

I have a new feeling, a bit strange

offering you eternal love that will never change

You are the love I have always been looking for

You are the true love I have never felt before

In front of your eyes, I am speechless

Listen to my heartbeats as words can't express

When reality has become better than fiction

And you are far more beautiful than every prediction

A princess straight from heaven you really are

I am holding a dream I have always thought very far

I am enthralled by your eyes and their magic

A time when I lose all my reason and logic

I drown into the deep sea of your eyes

Believe your heart, it never lies

You have become all the people I'd like to know

You are the secret of my happiness, you are the clue

Let's start our love journey at forever

A journey of love that ends at never

You grow a rosy flower in my heart that never withers

You gave my hearts wings and feathers

I no longer live on earth

You gave me a love knows no death

I give you a promise that will never break

I am yours forever, I will always be there for your sake

My eyes no longer see but you

Only you paint my life and draw

Every new year and I am yours and you are mine

Every new year and we are lovers' model and sign

Every new year and I love you again and again

Every new year and we are in love and will always remain

Every new year and you are all my flowers and trees

Every new year and you are all the air I breathe

Every new year and we are together

Every new year and we belong to each other

***

Rose Birthday

To the rose of my life, happy birthday

For you I always supplicate and pray

Your birthday is the beginning of my life as well

I dream about you since in your love I fell

On my heart wall I feel your handprint

You deserve all the heartbeats I have sent

On your day I announce you the queen of my soul

In your love I am always ready to fall

I burn my soul a candle to lighten 

your way

I present my heart cake to celebrate your day

On your day you are the wish I always make

I am ready to cross the ocean for your sake

Let the earth celebrate the rose of may

Let the trees and leaves with the wind play

Let birds start singing to celebrate your birth

Let's welcome the sun that lightens the earth

When you smile you eliminate all the pain

My heart is always thirsty for your rain

When you make a wish and close your eyes

Remember my love is immortal, it never dies

On your day I am sending my soul watching you from above

On your day I am sending you all my heart and all my love

***

Sky

I have found my home, my sky

I long to hug you and fly so high

Your touch pushes life into my veins

You remove all my worries and pains

I began to feel alive again

You gave me love that words fail to explain

Looking at you is my absolute pleasure

Your love has become my sole treasure

When we are together, time flies

My love is an ocean that never dries

That ocean is so deep with no shore 

Created to love you more and more

When I see you, I see heaven on earth

Finding you is my new being, my new birth

I dream of hugging you so tight

You're the moon that illuminates my night

Your love is deep-rooted in my heart

Designed to last and never depart

I fell for the magic in your eyes

My love is eternal and never dies

Your smile makes my day 

I chose your love to be my way

My sky has become so close now

I don't know when this happened or how

***

The Garden of my Love 

You are the garden of love I have dreamed about

You are the secret of happiness without any doubt

You are my trees, flowers and butterflies

You are the river of life that never dries

You are my birds that fill life with singing

You are my heartbeats that never stop ringing

I need to spend the rest of my life in your shade

I need to enjoy your true love that will never fade

Between your branches I found true love

On your trees tops I saw rare birds above

You are my love garden on earth 

Your Flowers give me a new birth

Your lovely scents give me the air I breathe

In your cool shade I enjoy the lovely breeze

Whenever I close my eyes

I feel your love and warm sighs

Away from my garden I feel lost

Your heart is always the best host

My love garden is a beautiful Rose

I will live there forever, I suppose

***

Travel

I am going to travel chasing my dream

Crossing every ocean, sea and stream

I am determined to achieve every goal

I am going to stand up every time I fall

My heart refuses to settle down on earth

With every travel I make I get a new birth

My wings are born to flutter so high

My feathers promise to visit every sky

I never get tired, I never get old 

I pursue every dream I once called

On every land I leave a deep mark

In the vast space I am a singing lark

My sun always sets to rise fully again

Spreading warmth, eliminating every pain

Life is too short to waste in one land

I travel to touch each grain of sand

Travel never stops teaching

Life never stops preaching

Every new land has its own magic

Charming beauty sweeps every logic

I was born a pharaoh to master the whole earth

Everlasting traveler since my ancestors’ birth

***

Bio: Walid Abdallah is an Egyptian poet and author. He is a visiting professor of English language and literature in Egypt, Saudi Arabia, Germany and the USA, his poetry includes "Go Ye Moon", “The Queen of my Heart”, " Dream" and "My Heart Oasis". His books include Shout of Silence, Escape to the Realm of Imagination, The Egyptian Lane and Man Domination and Woman Emancipation, Arc and Seam and his co-translations with Andy Fogle of Farouk Goweda’s poetry have previously appeared in Image, RHINO, Reunion: Dallas Review, and Los Angeles Review. These translations won prestigious prizes in the USA like "Cause", "Egypt's Grief", and "Strangers' Cross". 

Rezkw488@strose.edu

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Setu, March 2023