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The Bow: Fiction Donn Hayden

Donn Hayden
When I was a young boy my Grandfather took me camping for the first time.  I remember that it was early in the summer, because the strawberries were still being harvested.  I thought it strange, that Grandfather had brought his bow along with him, but had not brought any arrows.  As any boy would, I had cautiously reminded him, that he had forgotten to bring the arrows, and he turned towards me and answered, “We won’t need them on this trip my son.”

We were to be gone for three days and two nights following a small brook by our village that led towards the mountains.  The air was pure and gentle as we walked, and eventually we had crossed three fourths of the grassy plains surrounding our village, perhaps four or five miles.  Grandfather paused when the wooded area was perhaps a mile away and gave me a drink or water from a gourd he untied from his waist. As I looked back at the village it was very small and insignificant.

            “Are you ready to go son?”  Grandfather said.  I agreed as we started to walk again.  After just a few steps, he paused and said “Would you like to carry the bow?”  I of course, relishing the honor, said yes and took the unstrung instrument from his time worn hand.  “Be careful not to let the nocks touch the ground” he cautioned, and I didn’t let the ends touch, carrying the instrument reverently on my shoulder as we walked the remaining distance to the wooded area.

            “Look grandfather.”  I shouted excitedly as there were beech trees around us on all sides.  “I can see where the stream comes down from the mountain.”  I guess that I forgot to tell you that my grandfather was going blind, because it wasn’t important I suppose.  He probably just saw shadows of light and dark while I could see the detail of each leaf while it waved in the breeze as if playing with the sunlight, allowing the suns beams to pass through and splash onto the ground.

            “I heard the water my son.”  Grandfather replied. “But please, tell me what you see.”

            “It is so beautiful Grandfather.”  I said as I went on describing the particular shade of green on the underside of the beech leaves as the sunlight passed through them.  You, as Grandfather did too, already know the exact shade of green that I am referring to.  So, I won’t bore you with trying to describe it again.  Anyway, it was a new experience to me, and we made our camp there and before I dropped off to sleep I turned and said “Grandfather, do you think that the sunlight passes through people as it does the leaves?”  He was already asleep.

We arose early in the morning and continued our trek up the mountain taking turns carrying the bow and the pack containing our supplies and blankets.  We had slept outside under the stars, and there was a definite chill when the sun went down because of the time of the year.  Grandfather also explained to me, as we stopped for our first break, that the higher up the mountain we went, the cooler it got.  I had already learned that at the school, but I didn’t say anything to Grandfather because my mother had taught me to respect elders.

            As we continued to climb, the water ran faster and Grandfather filled the drinking gourd with fresh cool water from a little waterfall right by a fallen tree that was very large and seemed like it might have been a hundred years old.  Our journey up the mountain was more difficult than yesterday’s trip across the plains, but it was far more interesting as every few minutes there was something new to discover.  A squirrel or a chipmunk, all kinds of different birds making beautiful songs, the little fox that I didn’t even see, but Grandfather did, made me wonder who the blind one really was.

            Before long our trip was over, not at the top of the mountains by any means, but to where we were going on this journey.  We stood there looking at a beautiful mountain lake with water so smooth that the reflection of the larger mountains would have been exactly the same if I was upside down.  In fact, I tried to bend over and look at the reflection with my head upside down.  I could still tell which was which, because the blood rushing to my head was a giveaway, but I think you know what I mean.

            We made camp and enjoyed a time of discussion that my Grandfather and I would probably never have again.  For some reason, as we were building the campfire, I asked my Grandfather how it was that people who were blessed with living in this beautifully created world were always fighting and how sad it was that this tribe hated that tribe or this man killed that one and such things as that. 

            “I will tell you a story after dinner my son.”  Grandfather said.

            As the Sun was thinking about retiring for the evening, Grandfather asked me to walk to the water’s edge with him.  He picked up the bow and we walked together.  “One time,” Grandfather said as he pointed to the painted sky with the bow, “the spirit of a great warrior was walking across the cosmos.  He was taller than the distance from Earth to the moon.”  Grandfather said, “Perhaps even the distance to the sun.”  As he looked in the direction where the sun was setting he added.  “There were armies of these colossal beings that had fought through eternity, since the beginning of time, one against the other.”

            This particular Great Spirit had walked away from the battle thinking simply ‘I shall fight no more.’  “As he walked across the vastness of deep space, with his bow still in hand, his moccasins caused the stellar dust to stir into little vortexes and they became the great galaxies spinning off from his footsteps.”

As massive in size he was, he still had the ability to become smaller and smaller as his mass was spread out so thin that He was invisible.”  Grandfather went on.  “And one day his travels brought him back to the galaxy we call the Milky Way and he decided to visit it for some reason I shall never know.”

            Bringing his Spirit together and getting smaller and smaller, the Great Spirit became the size of a sun, and then a planet and eventually the size of a mountain.  When He was the size of you and me, he came to a mountain lake right here on Earth, just like this one.  “He thought for a time about Earth, noticing that there were no people, so he took his bow and touched one of the ends of the bow to the glassy surface of the mountain lake.  Rings rippled in the water where the nock of the bow touched, reaching the shore, and people were born from the waves and walked out onto the land.  Then the Great Spirit laid his bow down by the water’s edge to speak to the people before He returned to his colossal invisible self, forgetting the bow.”

            “Take this bow my son.” Grandfather said as he handed his cherished handmade weapon to me with tears running down his cheeks.  “This is the very bow that the Great Spirit left here by the water that day.  Now go, my Son, and break off the nocks and smash it to pieces on those rocks.”

The Green: Fiction by Donn Hayden

“It’s out there somewhere, just north of Rt. 20, between Abilene and Fort Worth”
Donn Hayden
She had waited 62 years for this very day and dressed with great care.  Her hair, although a bit grey, was soft as silk and the curls splayed out across her back bringing to one’s mind the thought of pure silver or platinum, although she had never thought that.  Even though she was in her 60’s, she had never worn makeup.  Her finger nails had never been painted, however looking closely; you would have said that they had just been manicured.

She paced back and forth, pausing at one open window and then the other.  Looking out on familiar scenes she had watched all her life.  “Whatever can I say?” She asked herself audibly. Over the years, she had thought of the feelings she would express, the questions that she could finally ask.  She already knew some of the answers.  She had learned them from countless trips to the windows, understanding the big important ones forty years ago, when she was nearing twenty. Thinking back those forty plus years there were other questions she had often asked herself…
“What is it like to do this or that?” or “How would that make me feel?” and questions such as these.  The answers to many of those questions, unlike the ones she already knew, had never been answered. 

In the next room, there was another woman, 79 years old.  She paced back and forth between two windows in her room as well… one opened and one still veiled.  Even though she was older, she looked out the open window as if she was a bright-eyed child seeing for the first time.  Her hair was the same shade of silver and platinum, but not as smooth.  She wore a dark business suit and her nails were also well groomed, but painted a claret red color.  As she paused nervously at the veiled window and while she reached to draw back the thin curtain, she noticed her nails and a vivid memory of when she was 17 raced back into her mind.  She somehow knew that if she looked up and out that window she would see a projected image of herself, as a slim young dancer in a club that she had long ago forgotten even the name of.  It was in Texas she remembered, but many years ago, and even the name of the city, Necessity, somewhere out there between Abilene and Fort Worth, had long ago slipped from her mind.  But then she recalled the name of the city.

The memories had somehow been suppressed all through her adult life, and her three children had never even heard the story of her short time in Texas after she ran away from her abusive father and drunken mother in California.  Her children all knew however that her father had served five years in the penitentiary and that their grandmother had got sober and put their mom through college.

“It’s OK to look said a woman as she approached the older lady touching her shoulder, everybody sees something out there.”  The woman continued talking, as she began tidying up the room a bit, most likely getting it ready for the next visitor.  At that point, the old woman looked away from the window and noticed that the one who spoke to her was dressed as a maid in a black and white uniform.  “Go on now, go and take a look, it’s not as bad as you think and it’s very important to someone else who’s here.”

Back in the other room, the younger woman stood at her window looking out at the perfectly cut green grass encompassed by white walls with windows that all had warm colored lights on inside.  In several you could see a figure standing and looking out of their window just like she was, but there were no doors that opened onto the green.  Most of the figures had their hands on the window sill as they looked, many were pointing to the empty center of the Green, but a few had their arms folded across their chests and for some reason, she had always felt so sorry for that group.

As she stood there as she had hundreds of times before, to no avail year after year, the vision that had always eluded her finally began to appear, just as everything else in the room started to fade.  Soon the window sill her hands rested on and the entire window and wall were gone and without moving, she arose and was standing on dew touched grass in her bare feet.  Walking towards the vision, she could see that it was a young teenaged girl and a boy just a few years older.  They were on a picnic, talking happily of the things that lovers chat about and enjoying a summer’s breeze.  She had never even experienced a breeze like that or seen a young man like this before and she got so close that she could have even touched him, but she didn’t.  Somehow, she knew that her hand would not pass through him like we see happen in the movies, but also was aware that she was not permitted to touch him.

In the older lady’s room, the same thing was happening, only her vision was of a smoked filled club and she began to feel the driveway gravel through the soles of her high heeled shoes as she entered the club slowly and walked up to the same girl enticingly dancing in front of the young man.  She knew as well that it was against the rules to touch and immediately remembered that there was sign back at the club in Necessity that said the men could look but not touch the girls. 
There was another sign, she recalled, that said “ALL PERFORMERS ARE OVER 18” and she remembered that no one had even asked her age when she walked in looking for a job when it was still two months until her 17th birthday.  Focusing her mind on the vision again, she noticed that the dancer and the young man were staring lovingly into each other’s eyes.

The two women were intently watching the young people in their respective visions while they happened to notice each other from the corner of their eyes, at the same time…

“I’ve waited all my life…” the younger woman began as she turned toward the elder and spoke first, looking deeply into the older lady’s eyes.

“I know dear, I am so, so sorry…”  The older woman interrupted.

“I already know what happened and why.” The younger woman said as she reached and touched her mother for the very first time.  “I always believed that you must have looked pretty much like me as I watched myself growing up, in the mirror.”  She added.  “Seeing you and him on the picnic proves that I was right about what you looked like.  But I’ve always wondered what my father would have been like.” 

“But we never went on a picnic dear;” the older woman said as she embraced her daughter,
“he shipped out the following day and I never saw him again.”

“That’s OK mom, so now you’ve seen him twice and I’ve seen him once,” returning the embrace.  “I’ve got connections up here and we can go see him again someday if we want, assuming that he’s already here that is.  I’m sure you’ll want to forgive him for leaving you pregnant and all that.  But we’ve got a lot of catching up to do… a whole lot of catching up.”  

“We can get to all that falling in love with boys’ stuff later mom, but there’s one thing I have always wanted to know.   Well for more than 50 years anyway after hearing of such things.”

“What is that my dear?” The mother asked, still holding tightly onto her daughter with her chin resting on her shoulder, preparing to look into her child’s eyes for the dreaded question she had herself waited more than 60 years to hear.  “You can ask me anything you like and I will tell you the truth.”

The tearful daughter gritted her perfect teeth, backed away, still holding onto both of her mom’s soft hands.  She looked deeply into her mother’s blue eyes, also full of tears, and collected her thoughts carefully and childishly asked…

“What’s a puppy?” 

Donn Hayden

Donn is a 72-year- old Prostate Cancer survivor & lifelong daydreamer who is occasionally inspired to write by the Mania he inherited from his talented mother. He is working on an epic young adult novel with racism, religious persecution and slavery as its main themes.

He enjoys writing dual meaning, surprise ending and graphic poetry. His first poem, lost to the annals of history unfortunately, was written to his first Love in 1961. He was 17, Carol was 14, and the poem was titled “Devil’s Daughter.” It had however, been graded by a young teacher who drove a red MG sports car. The comments in red pencil began with “I get the idea; good poetry is your goal…”

Fifty some years later, Donn’s goal has never changed and he his old high school teacher continued to grade his poetry for him for many years, although he passed away this January. Some years ago, Donn wrote another poem to Carol, which was much nicer than the first…