Malashri Lal |
Home Is
A Canvas Bag
Memories
are stuffed into this frayed bag and
I’ve
run out of space.
One
pocket carries dried stalks of wheat from the field my father sold
that I
could travel abroad.
I had
promised to earn dollars and buy those lands back
but
never seemed to have any spare money to send home.
Another
flap, tucked deep within, has remnants of sacred cloth from the family shrine.
My
mother had extracted a promise that I will bow before it every day,
I
couldn’t, fearing the derision of roommates.
One
photo frame atop the memorabilia has fading portraits of pyo amd maa;
I
surreptitiously touch it morning and night
Honouring
my home in a canvas bag
Migrant
Birds
December,
and the Siberian Cranes flock to Bharatpur
And
tourists train their binoculars in ecstasy.
December,
and the diaspora Indians flock to the metropolis
And the
souvenir shops pitch their sales talk in hyperboles.
December
and itinerant adults lug suitcases to their childhood homes
Annual
rituals of “checking in” on ageing parents with stacks of medicines
December
and its festival time for the pretence of togetherness
Burying
loneliness, emotions, sorrow, in the gaps of formulaic utterances.
In
Transit
In my
widowhood my son offered me love and compassion, but in the US.
Weakened
by the trauma of a death unforeseen, I let him lead the way.
My home
of sixty decades of spousal life was easily sold
A
lifetime of memories packed into six large suitcases
My
friends treated to a luxurious farewell party.
“How
lucky” they said in unison, “Such devotion and care”.
Fourteen
hours I wept during the flight leaving my homeland,
The
loving, crazy, crowded city that was my outer skin.
America’s
manicured streets and gardens were soothing to my eyes
But my
soul was starved for company,
seeking
some neighbour who would bask in the sun with me,
gossip
across the fence, compare grocery prices, exchange home cooked food.
Six
months, and I had retreated into a silent shell
Like a
shrivelled pearl which didn’t want to leave its darkness.
My son
said he knew what I needed,
One day
he drove me far into the suburbs to a landscaped estate with many old people.
He left
me in a hotel-like room saying, “Ma, you’ll be happy here with so many like
you.”
I waved
good bye to a parting figure that I never saw again.
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